this, again in vain..

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19 years old soon, im gonna be dammed. 13th may 1988

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

am i only the person within my social circle suffering? why do i have to be brought to so much pain. i cant think my way out of it.. theres no known cure. i feel like i could die from any impending truth. yet i wish and think and wish.. for something i cant accomplish and will not happen. this is more difficult than reaching the stars. a desperate wish to be with. im limerent. its not love. i want to end it right now.. the physical pain i feel everyday. i wish.. i wish.

did it work out?;
6:36 PM
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Sunday, July 08, 2007

hey.. results of the mst was pretty good. didnt expect to be able to get above 80 for Aircraft Instrument Systems.

doing AIS project right now. sometimes i cant seem to get my mood starting for FYP. maybe its going to take a little longer.

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without her, my world stops turning. without me, her world is painted brilliant green. im so dumb and i like it. just like some kind of self inflicted mental torture. just like a pony chasing a carrot hung from its back. just like running after a F-15. just like being in space without a spacesuit. just like dreaming of winning lottery. just like losing a wallet. just like guilt. just like bittergourd. its a great feeling to feel uncertainty and hopelessness.. being at the bottom of the well. i like to wallow in self pity. thanks.

did it work out?;
8:30 PM
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