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19 years old soon, im gonna be dammed. 13th may 1988
Monday, May 21, 2007
its the Feeling again.
havent had this for a while.. a really bad ache in the chest. felt very lonely all of a sudden. i could abandon everything else just for that one thing..
felt better after my eyes teared. im wondering where this is going. shall i cheat myself into optimism or remain pessimistic. WHERE AM I GOING???
im a coward.. keeping all these burning feelings within me and suffering upon myself. how long shall i hope for what i wish to come true. i keep thinking it over again and again, dreaming of feelings of loneliness and happiness.
im feeling distressed. feel like running myself into a truck to end my 99.9% most-probably-is-not-going-to-happen thoughts. not even the best worst-scenario. i wish i wasnt limerent at all. im dumb. it hurts. real bad. like my heart is going to stop right away.
havent had this for a while.. a really bad ache in the chest. felt very lonely all of a sudden. i could abandon everything else just for that one thing..
felt better after my eyes teared. im wondering where this is going. shall i cheat myself into optimism or remain pessimistic. WHERE AM I GOING???
im a coward.. keeping all these burning feelings within me and suffering upon myself. how long shall i hope for what i wish to come true. i keep thinking it over again and again, dreaming of feelings of loneliness and happiness.
im feeling distressed. feel like running myself into a truck to end my 99.9% most-probably-is-not-going-to-happen thoughts. not even the best worst-scenario. i wish i wasnt limerent at all. im dumb. it hurts. real bad. like my heart is going to stop right away.
did it work out?;
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